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Fragment 1: Midwestern fuckery

Nov 29, 2019 - Matthew Papa

The first time I was fucked was in my royal blue, ’79 Chevy Nova late one summer night in my parents’ driveway. It was just before my eighteenth birthday with my friend Monty, a redhead like me but with blue eyes and a way better body. Having both recently come out, we had pent-up sexual frustration like a ripe zit waiting to be picked. It wasn’t planned so we didn’t have Vaseline or anything to help get him in me. So we got his dick in the old-fashioned way, with spit and some grit. 


I remember he was seated on the passenger side and I mounted him; it must have looked like any number of scenes from the soap operas I watched voraciously as a teen. I don’t, however, remember anything about the sex except for the moment when he pulled out and his dick was completely covered in my shit. He was disgusted, I was mortified and to make things worse there was absolutely nothing in my car to wipe him off… no tissues, no rag, no nothing.